I cried myself to sleep last night
I want to study
I don’t want to cry
I want to read this and study
God help me I’m not going to make it
I also feel incredibly fat too \m/ selfhate and shallowness that means I can’t even think I’m depressed because I don’t have enough to be depressed over
Can’t I ever just be sad
Its always too complicated
Sometimes a lot of times I just want to curl up and cry
Why didn’t I see this coming?
Why didn’t I do more to prevent it?
Why am I hurting myself like this?
None of it makes any sense
I am going to give it a shot because I need a good cry tomorrow will be very tough
I am very lost and sad and I want to cry myself to sleep
Time to do my shit and hope it works and hope I have enough strength to make it otherwise all is lost etc etc etc
I’m very sad and I don’t want to do anything but why even bother talking about it
Whines and cries
Its funny because I’m actually really upset but I don’t know where to start oh my god I’m so fucking screwed and I’m useless and anyone who needs me is going to be let down and nothing will ever work I will try over and over again but time after time I will just be beaten and bruised and no one will ever care or love me again it will be just pain like I have brought upon myself forever
